STABILITY

"Rest with me awhile. You have journeyed up a steep, rugged path in recent days. The way ahead is shrouded in uncertainty. Look neither behind you nor before you. Instead, focus you attention on Me, you constant Companion. Trust that I will equip you fully for whatever awaits you on your journey." (via Jesus Calling by Sarah Young)

With a lack of better words, the season I currently find myself in kinda sucks. Emotionally tapped out. Spiritually dry. Physically exhausted. I know I'm supposed to find joy in the midst of such, but that's straight up easier said than done.

Although it has been draining in all aspects of the word, it's also been a season of learning. Like metal being refined by a fire, I've been going through refinement. It burns. It's painful. It'll leave a mark. The amount of time spent there will determine how bad it hurts and how difficult the recovery will be.

Last month, I opened my Bible for the first time in awhile. It wasn't because I felt like I had to, but because I actually wanted to. I felt as accomplished as if I had won the gold.

And as the living word of God always does, the words spoke straight to my heart.

"He will be the stability of your times."

It's as if these words jumped off the page and had a literal dance party in my soul.

When I am an emotional wreck, when I'm spiritually sucked dry, when I'm tired physically, am I letting him be my stability? 

Why is that so stinkin' hard? Why do I often chose to stay in the overwhelming chaos, confusion, and pain when he can be my stabilizing force? Why, instead, do I run to other things to satisfy as if they will do as such?

Temporary coping is not better than permanent stability. And as a new song that has been on constant repeat says, "steady, you stay." 

Steady. He is steady. He is stable. And he will stay that way.

He will be the stability of my times.